My name is Monica and I am 30 years old and a mommy of 3 amazing kiddos.  I have 2 kiddos from a previous marriage and gained another beautiful little girl dating my current boyfriend and love of my life.  We were high school sweethearts and were too young to realize what we had together at the time, lost contact for nearly ten years and he found me on facebook and weve been together ever since.

I was a stay at home mom...not by my choice, but forced for ten years and it took a toll on me as a person and how people perceive me now.  Ive become very shy and anxious in social settings.  My children and immediate family were all I knew for many years, so its been hard for me to break out of that, normal...not so normal life I had.  Ive been divorced now for almost 4 years and Ive been a roller coaster with my anxiety.  It has gotten worse unfortunately due to the stresses one gets from going through a divorce with children.  I lost the ability to drive by myself because one day I was driving and was feeling fine, i might add, i drove over a bridge Ive driven over many times before, and almost blacked out!  I had this horrible panic feeling.  I felt like my throat was closing up and I couldnt breath. My mouth got extremely dry.  To top it off I had my boyfriends little girl with me at the time and it was just me and her.  It has scared me so much so, to the point of having those same symptoms every time Ive driven by myself since.  Its been over a year since Ive driven anywhere by myself, further than the store at the end of my street.  I struggle daily with my anxiety and worry I weird out my boyfriend, family and friends.  I used to be such an outgoing person, very bubbly and full of life.  I am still, but only with my family when we are home.  Any social setting and the anxiety is triggered and I clam up or just look miserable.

Recently Ive decided to take on my issue and do something productive instead of let life pass me by.  My kiddos are getting older and my little boy is starting school this year.  So what better time to work on me, right?  Taking baby steps, Ive decided to take an online class and go back to school.  I figured this would help my self esteem and social confidence.  I also started this blog not only as a hobby, but to also help with my anxiety and stress.  Like most girls, Ive always loved beauty.  Whether it be makeup, hair, fashion, an amazing personality...etc.  I want to be involved in some way, making other women feel confident, in turn, helping my confidence.  I have a crazy life story and maybe in the future I will open up more as to why I am who I am... but for now, I hope you all enjoy my beauty blogging and ask me any questions you'd like.  Thanks for checkin out my blog.  Stay tuned for some great reviews and tips..they are coming soon!!

Monica